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 S.T.E


Have you had the uncontrollable emptiness of sorrow, dread, seeing the side of someone you wished to have never seen?

Wishing the memory could be swiped from your mind, cursed to be forever engrained?

Something that completely wipes the image of the person you thought you once knew. A choice so devastating, uncharacteristic, and volatile that it forced you to question all that they had been in that very moment...

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This track focuses on knowing someone (or believed so) and seeing their true colors for the first time. 

Once happy to be part of their person, now disappointed in what they have become (or always been), wishing you never witnessed the decline in their character, morals, and lack of self-awareness. 

They could have been so much more, yet they chose to stay stagnant in ignorance, withholding their need for change into something better, being better. 

All you can do is reminisce the past, question how it came to this final exhibition of undue disdain, unhinged fervor, and lack of human decency towards the one they claim to care for. 

So much so, that all you can do is wish for them to take the reins of volition and decide, for the both of you, to let go, because of the difficulty to do it yourself. 

As much as you want to believe them, that small voice in the back of your mind wants to keep hoping for better. 

You realize quickly that is all a lie, the truth cannot be forgotten. How can it? We should 
never need to plead for mutual affectionate regard by those that we deemed worthy on our account in the first place.  

Cloaked, wrapped in a blanket of sadness mixed in truth with denial, forcefully willing oneself to battle the realms of uncharted uncertainty within us. 

The only answer? 

Let go of the past, as of this moment, none of it matters. 

See who they aren't. What they were was temporary fragments of nostalgia, lies we convinced ourselves to excuse the "innocent" inflicted scars, aimed, brewing, unprovoked through time.

To finally, accept what once was, to face the reality of life now, in order to move forward, doing the one thing they failed to achieve, that was so effortless for us along their forged reciprocation.

Now, to always be your own source of love.

To protect and value you, forever. 



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